In A Funk.

Last night I just texted my boyfriend and said, "I just feel so uninspired."  It was in reference to Halloween, and my party and all the month's festivities.  And this crap always happens.  I always get in a weird fucking slump, and feel random anxiety, heart palpitations, apathy, confusion, stress and all that unnecessary crap.  And it doesn't help that Ichabod has been mysteriously sick off and on the past few weeks.

All I want to do is break down and cry and watch YouTube and get over this weird anxiety and for my cat to feel 100% better.  Maybe I need a drink.

I think maybe I'm having the dreaded third life crisis.  I'm almost 29, so I figure I'll be through a third of my life by then, hoping to make it to at least 90.  But yeah, it's just utter bullshit.  Inexplicable, utter bullshit.

I know I have a lot of friends who suffer from anxiety, and unfortunately, for me, I feel as though mine has gotten worse over the years.  It's time to make life fucking decisions and get my shit together, because I definitely don't have my shit together.  I only play like I do on TV.

Sorry for the Debbie Downer intro, I just needed to get some of that off my chest, for the love of God.  And actually, I feel slightly better.  So...THANKS!  Thanks for obliging me.

In other news, we DID go to The House of Torment, and it was a BLASSSSSSST.  Seriously one of my most favorite times yet.  Here's our silly amazing photo:

I have about 9 day until the party now, and I feel like I'm just going to procrastinate until the Friday/Saturday before.  I've done a few small handfuls of stuff, but nothing blog worthy.

But in other OTHER news, I did post a NON-Halloween YouTube video if anyone is interested in #veganlyfe, I made a video of some vegan foods that I recently purchased.  Trying to appeal to as many audiences as I can at this point:

My next video will likely be a random Vlog of me just talking, or a Wiccan/Pagan book haul!  In any case, thanks for stopping by!  I really 'ppreciate it :)