This is a shocker....for those of you who know me....
I haven't really been in Halloween mode AT ALL this year..and I have mixed feelings about it. And it's September fucking 2nd! So yeah, I am kind of freaking out seeing as the party is in fifty days.
Everyone who knows me knows I'm the epitome of Halloween crazed, but this year has been unique. Unique in that a lot of things have changed in my life, bad things happened, but even more amazing things happened, and I've been taking time for those amazing things and working on getting past the bad things. That is the reason for my Halloween slacking.
My depression and anxiety hit an all time high, but still getting better every day. I don't need the medication for it anymore and am going to therapy every other week and applying all the self-help shit I've learned over the years. Becoming self-aware is key if you're going to make it in this life. I feel like I talked about some of this in my last post, but since I'm so terrible at updating these days, and it's been like 3 months, I don't mind repeating myself.
As far as the Halloween shin-dig, I have put forth SOME effort into it...I bought some liquor, woohoo. And have bought a few decoration supplies....most of which I will need to craft myself, sooooo I'm really going to need to make the time to actually do that. Ugh, my gawd, thinking about it is so stressful. I feel like every year people rely on me to put on this wild spectacle of Halloween shenanigans and I feel like I'm going to let myself and other people AND the entity of Halloween, down! I AM FREAKING OUT. Right now, right in this moment I am freaking out!!!! AS I'M TYPING.
Fuck....I really need to get my shit together....people depend on me....
Okay, but really, now that it's September, I feel like I can get in the swing of it. And once I start seeing all the Halloween stuff in stores, shit will get real. Halloween shit is always real, it's just suppressed.
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