Halloween Has Begun.

I think my brain is getting a little bit of a jump start with regards to Halloween planning.  Considering we had the dumbest "winter" ever here in Texas.  What a fucking bust.  If you know me or have read any of my previous entries, you know how much I prefer cold, cloudy weather.  The only thing I hate about winter really, is the fact that it gets dark so early.  It's starting to stay bright until about 6:20pm now, but I can't wait until it gets back to being light until about 9pm.  But what a shit winter for those of us who need the dismal Tim Burtonesque type weather.  I feel fucking cheated!

Not to mention I'm actually really sick and tired of people saying how fucking BEEEAUUTIFUL it is outside.  Here's an idea, not everyone SHARES your love of the sun and 80F January days.  Go eat a dick and take your "BEAUTIFUL" sunny weather with you.  OKAY, that was uncalled for, but I'm so tired of people talking about how mother fucking beautiful it is.  Come up with another adjective, you dorks!  End Rant.

So with this stupid abbreviated weather, I feel like my conscience is starting a little early, because my brain THINKS it's April.  For those of you who don't know, or don't remember, the theme of the party this year is Vintage Halloween.  It's actually probably going to be pretty easy.  Just lots of crepe paper and streamers.  I'm also planning on having a photo booth of sorts for people to play with props and take pictures with my camera and what not.  Juices are flowing!

As far as my channel, things are going swimmingly.  I could use more views and subscribers, but I guess I just need to be patient.  The only issue is the lack of time I have to make the videos "nice."  Like I literally came home from work last night, did some cleaning, microwaved dinner (because of time restraints), watched a horror flick still in my work clothes, which are also kind of like pajamas, finished the movie and filmed a haphazard review....not to mention I was kinda high on my epilepsy meds, so needless to say, the movie review will be kinda shitty, lol.  But whatever, they'll get better with time, ha.

In case you missed my last two horror themed videos, you're in luck!  I have them right here!

These are actually two of my favorites already, and I think I'm making the right decision with going the horror route.  I am beyond excited.

Other than that...in the bad news department, I'm suffering from unfounded, inexplicable anxiety attacks again.  I am trying to cope with them mostly with just talking to myself.  I've cut out the caffeine (still drinking decaf because I like the taste of coffee), but I think I should cut out the beer too :(  Booooooo.  I really just need to get a physical and see if I can talk to a psychiatrist.  I just don't understand their origin.  I can't find a trigger.  It's scary because it's causing breathing and swallowing issues/fears.  Talking to other people about their experiences helps, and I even called a crisis hotline the other night just to TALK to someone.

Seriously, if you are ever needing to just talk to someone, you don't have to be on the verge of suicide, you are allowed to call those hotlines ANYTIME you feel you are alone or need to talk to someone outside of your scope of friends and family.

Okay okay, that's enough for today.  I just wanted to announce that the ball is rolling, amidst all the other life shit I have to do!  Thanks for stopping by, kittens.  Tell your friends and don't forget to subscribe to my YouTube channel!  It really helps me out a lot.  Much love!! <3

Ladies & Gentleman, Boys & Ghouls.

I just wasted like 30 minutes trying to find a new countdown widget for Halloween....can't find one...will get back to that later.

Okay, anyway, I know I've said this before, but I don't like having this much time in between posts.  I mean, I guess I don't have THAT much to say, especially within the realm of Halloween related things, but there is always the horror aspect....

So I recently decided...and I have no idea if I already mentioned this in my last blog, but I've recently decided that the route I need to take my YouTube channel is the horror route.

When I first started making videos, I had no idea wtf I was doing, where I was going with it and what I wanted my direction to be, but now I know.  Tonight I filmed my first (shitty) video of my Horror Block unboxing!!!  And while it's kinda lame, and scatter-brained, I will be making them better in the future.  I had to film it quickly and kind of way too late because I need to film in private, and I feel like I don't get much privacy or alone time these days.  So I just threw it together tonight with crappy lighting and no script but whatever, I'm trying my best with the time I have.

As usual though, here are my latest uploads for those who missed out.

I really like my arcade walk-through video, I mean, it's not the greatest cinematography, but that's not what I get paid to do.  I just had fun making it.  Oh, and I'm not sharing my new underwear video here....those stupid videos get views without me even trying....sheesh.

So while those are being enjoyed I will try to get the other one edited and uploaded within a timely fashion.  In the meantime, here's what else I've been up to in photos....

Makin' delicious vegan foods, such as chili and vegan cheese dip!

Acquiring Halloween decor for everyday use!

And finally opening this mother B!!

Otherwise, my class starts next week and I get my mornings back from work!!!  Maybe I'll get some me time, as well as more time to film videos, huzzah!

Okay, time to work...or maybe just watch a horror movie and fall asleep, hehehehe.  Goodnight.